I pointed this out to my daughter Kathy a few days earlier. “You are not elderly,” she said, “You don’t look or act elderly.”
Susan says she agrees with Kathy. But when Susan and I were seated together at a dinner a couple of weeks ago, an acquaintance of hers came to our table to say hello. “Oh, is this your mother?” she said, smiling at me with that benevolent expression people tend to direct at us oldies.
I realize that I have now crossed the divide from the acceptable seventies to the unbelievable eighties, and apparently it’s obvious. I’m with three fellow writers – all a generation younger than I – at a library where we’re going to present a reading from the collection of memoirs we wrote together. The dithery staff person in charge shows us to a room with rows of seats and a raised platform at one end. There’s a long table and four chairs on the platform, where we will be sitting.
The library woman leads us to the platform and turns to me, saying, “Sorry, but there’s no railing, so be careful.”
I manage to step onto the platform without falling on my face. “Good girl,” says the library woman.
One summer day, after trying to save my once-bountiful fuchsia plant from an onslaught of mealy bugs, I finally realize it is not going to survive. I dislodge the basket holding the fuchsia from its hook on the apartment balcony and carry it down in the elevator. It’s a big plant, and its leaves are all brown and drooping.
As I’m leaving the building, wearing jeans, a wrinkled cotton shirt, and sun glasses, I run into the sister of my neighbor Mary. “Hi,” she says. “You look great! And that’s a beautiful plant.”
If she thinks my dead plant is beautiful, what does it mean that she thinks I look great?
My son Stephen, who lives nearby, is hosting a barbeque to celebrate his birthday. He’s invited family members and many of his friends, including several musicians from Brooklyn, where he lived before his recent move to the suburbs. Stephen’s plan is to serve food on his terrace and then move inside, where his friend Josama, a Dominican artist and rapper in his thirties, will record some tracks.
I tell my husband we should only stay for an hour or so, meet Stephen’s friends, have something to eat, and then go. I don’t think the old parents should stick around too long. But I’m enjoying the food and the company, so we linger on. We finally leave as the music is about to begin. Stephen calls us in the evening to ask how we enjoyed the party.
He tells me that Josama said, “I like your mom. She’s mad chill.”
The next weekend our granddaughter Rachel is visiting from the city. A recent college graduate, she is working in a restaurant while waiting to begin a stint as an editorial intern. She’s pretty, lively, and in a good mood. Stephen, who has stopped by, tells her about an upcoming Brooklyn block party where Josama will be showing his paintings. This leads me to tell Rachel the story of Josama’s remark about me at Stephen’s party.
“Hmm,” she says. “I wouldn’t call you mad chill.”
She hesitates. “I would say for a grandma you’re just chill.”
Another day I’m on the Metro-North train to Manhattan. The conductor, a slender, fortyish guy, is making his way down the aisle. He stops next to me.
“Senior, Grand Central,” I say, holding out my seven dollars.
“You want one Yonkers Grand Central?” I think he says.
“No, one senior to Grand Central,” I say.
“Yeah, one youngster to Grand Central.”
“You know, that’s not really funny,” I say, trying not to sound curmudgeonly.
“Hmm,” he says, “I guess I’ll have to come up with another line.”
When I return to my suburban train station, I have to climb a steep flight of stairs and then go down another to reach the parking lot. Because of the pain in my arthritic left knee, I have to take the steps one at a time. There’s an elevator, but I’m leery about using it.
When I leave the train and head for the stairs, I take my time so others can get there first. It’s slow going for people who get stuck behind me. This day I’m carrying a heavy plastic shopping bag holding two loaves of bread, a box of dark chocolate-covered mints, and two Jamaican meat patties. I’ve also got a bag of Christmas gifts for my daughter and granddaughter.
I make it to the top step and pause to adjust my packages. A man reaches out a hand. He’s handsome: rugged, and white-haired, maybe about seventy, with tanned skin and blue eyes. “Can I help you?” he says.
“You could get me a knee replacement,” I say, and we both laugh. He takes one of my bags and we walk together to the down staircase and make our way, side by side, to the parking lot. He tells me he also has arthritis, very painful, in his back, his knees, his hands.
“I had to retire because of it,” he says. “I was a carpenter.”
We reach the bottom, say goodbye, and head in different directions. I walk home bemused, having bonded with an attractive man over our mutual arthritis pain.
26 Comments on “Turning Elderly”
I loved this piece. It’s so real, by which I mean that it’s very well written. I’m 69 and very alert to ageism, even though I don’t challenge it as often as I should.
It’s good to challenge ageist remarks and jokes. It takes some courage, but you’ll feel good when you do it.
So what happens when you do start to look your age? I’ve heard those “you don’t look your age comments” and although I am glad to get them – I resent them at the same time. In your 20s, 30’s, etc. people don’t feel the need to comment on the age issue. So why now?
I’m no longer told I don’t look my age, but sometimes people seemed amazed that my brain still works. I was in a museum shop one day with my son when I paused to look something up on my phone. A random woman several feet away asked my son if I were his mother. When he nodded yes, the woman said, “She’s so iPhone savvy. You go, girl!”
Thank you for a great read. I also noticed this chasm between being 79 and turning 80.
I know. I was much more active in my 70s. Not sure if it’s physical or psychological. Both, I guess.
Enjoyed this story Recently speaking with a friend about what “elderly”means. Those our age in our late seventies are referred to as ‘elderly” yet we both don’t think of ourselves as “elderly” and are surprised to think so!
I’ve started just saying “old.” It’s time to face it.
I loved your story. It reminded me of a time I stopped at Taco Bell with my husband. The young male cashier looked at me as he rung up our order. When I took our tray to the table I noticed “Sr Disc” on the receipt. I was only 52! I figured if he wants to make that assumption, I’ll gladly take the discount.
Great story. Maybe he was nearsighted, or very young.
Thanks for this funny and poignant piece. As I approach the end of my 70’s, still running, working out, practicing yoga, still wearing running shorts, I wonder how I will be in my 80’s. I still get the ,” Oh, you couldn’t be 78″ comments, which I love, but in my heart I often feel much, much older. Maybe I look much younger on the outside, but, as my mother always said, “The legs are the last to go.” So I’ll keep running and running and running. I love what you wrote.
I’m not running but walking carefully.. And tai chi at home in front of my computer monitor.
I loved reading this ..I am 83..and hope I am a “mad chill” (whatever that is)
According to the Urban Dictionary, it means “very cool” Which is a good thing.
I love this, Joan. Your sense of humor still leads. That’s great. I’m 78 now and also have arthritis in my back and wrists. My solution to putting my backpack in the overhead bin is to launch it over my shoulder and aim for the bin and push it in with my head. That usually brings out a lot of help. Have a great holiday.
78!! How is that possible? So good to read your words. Maybe if this thing ever ends you and your backpack can take a train to Mount Kisco and we can hang out. Happy Holidays.
Thank you so much for this, Joan. Now in my seventies, I recall that turning elderly began in my early forties on East 7th Street in Manhattan when a teenage boy passed me, then turned to say, “Hey, I bet you was good lookin’ when you was young.” Perspective is everything.
That is so funny! I met another Brooklyn friend of my son’s one day and after I left he said to my son, “Your mother must have been a looker back in the day.” I wonder if it was the same guy.
Joan., thanks for the read !!! Bob and I add our years, Bob is 11 and this year I am 12, elder of the two is us. Life is good, even some of our offspring are retiring!
Same thing is happening in my family.
Loved reading this. It hits so close to home. Hope you have a wonderful Christmas. We are never too old for that. All my family is coming to Old Saybrook this year.
I’m so glad your family will all be together. Have a wonderful time.
This was a lovely story Joan. Have a wonderful holiday.
Ah Joan! How I relate. Let me count the ways. Maybe later when I have the time to enumerate MANY. Love this.
Joan, I absolutely loved this story. Talk about universal truths. I’m an active over 70 senior and I find myself analyzing younger folks’ comments about how good I look for my age and the young lady comment. Or, you don’t look old. I want to say, “Just keep on living”, but I smile instead.
Thanks. I love your response to my story.